Day Twelve

Today's Weight:
243.6

Yes, I gained. Now - I will say, when I weighed myself after getting home last night, I had lost 1.6 pounds, and was down to 241. Within the night, had I continued on my path, I would have been back into the 239 range - BUT, I cheated.

It was my last night to get rid of the fantastic corn chips that my friend brought me from out of state, and to eat the last bit of that ice cream in the freezer. I felt so apprehensive getting on that scale this morning - I knew that there would be a gain, and sure enough there was.

I am back on the diet today, however - and I'm looking forward to continued weightloss like yesterday's BEFORE I decided to cheat and indulge. I made a weightloss calendar, which had several goals on it yesterday, and I'm hoping to be down 30 pounds before November 25th, when I leave to go back and see family.

I'm not sure if I am going to do it, it will be tough. It will be a total loss of 38 pounds in just a few weeks. I plan on doing my diet and exercising as much as I can, without completely exhausting myself. Ultimately, it's a particular pair of pants I'd like to wear while "home" and I think that I will wear them comfortably even if I only lost another 15 pounds, but 30 is the goal.

So Starting TODAY, we'll have a pound count down. From 251.6 to the goal of 213.6 is 38 pounds. So the scale will already read 8 pounds down, YAY! Only 30 more to go.

Day 11

Day 11, and I'm back on the diet. I did get off of it this weekend, in the hopes that I would be able to enjoy pumpkin ravioli, but that didn't quite happen. I did however, get some great things which I had been craving desperately AND for the first time in I don't know how long, I actually felt what it felt like to feel STUFFED!

I didn't even eat that much either, it was just that my stomach had already began to shrink back into a normal size, and that meal was a normal meal. Mmmm, very good too!

So, anyway - I'm back on the diet, and with a good goal. I'm now going to be making a trip in late November to visit my family. I was fat when I left, and I'm hoping to be thin when I go back. It would be the perfect holiday.

Today's Weight:
242.6

Today's Menu:
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: 1 Large Chicken Breast - rotisserie grilled
Dinner: 2 Chicken Breasts, wrapped in bacon, baked

Total Pounds Lost:
9

Day Eight

Today's Weight:

237.4

Yes, you're reading it right - and so was I! 2 Ounces, I lost 2 OUNCES! Give me a break! This diet has always been so good to me, and here I've been on the thing for a solid 7 days, wavering only slightly, and for like one single solitary M&M, and I lose 2 OUNCES!

For SHAME!

I'm confused, I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Perhaps I shouldn't have weighed myself everyday? Maybe just once at the end of the 10 day mark, and then I would have been satisfied with the 14 pound loss.

I have been sedentary, so there has been very little activity which would encourage my body to start burning fat - other than what we are told it does just breathing, sitting up right, walking, etc..

Maybe today I need to go to the gym and just sweat off 3650 calories on the eliptical in fat burn mode? It's really upsetting to me that I'm losing at this really slow rate, even though I know it's still TOO fast. I wanted to be down at least 16 pounds by today, and I had hoped 20 pounds by this party I was supposed to go to on Saturday.

I tried on the pants today, or what I thought were the pants that I was hoping to get into by Thanksgiving. Boy have I grown! I'm a little confused though, I think they may be from a different time in my life ... a thinner time, and they're just the same brand. I'm telling myself that anyway - and I guess we'll have to see when I get home and look through the closet that never ends! Skinny clothes, after Skinny clothes ... none I can wear and feel good about.

I suppose that and the pictures I took of my fat body were inspiration to make a change. So, I have to stick to my guns here. I am going to exercise today, if it kills me. Maybe just a run/jog/walk thing around the streets in my neighborhood. I can't keep on letting myself go. Perhaps I'll break out the slim-in-6 DVD? There's no time like the present, right?

Day 7

Yesterday, I was bad.

Scratch that, I was evil!

I had so much candy, and chips, and blah blah blah, it was rediculous! Note: They were very small amounts, adding up to maybe 20 carbs total. Still, I lost weight - but not much.

Today's Menu:
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch:
Dinner:

Today's Weight:
237.6

Pounds Lost:
13

Day 6

Well, I'm not extremely happy with the progress I've made in just the past day. This morning my weight was only at 238.8, meaning that I had only lost 8 ounces, which honestly could have been just clothing. What happened?

I did have a diet soda yesterday, and I know that diet soda's are a death sentence for weightloss on a plan like this, but I am doing really well with food. Last night I went to the store and bought boneless, skinless chicken breasts, and coated them with bbq sauce. Most of the sauce cooked away, so there were very little carbs, but it did give it a nice flavor.

I drank water for the rest of the day, into the night - and only had minimal carbs throughout the day. My exercise level is low, maybe I should boost that a bit?

I'm sticking to my plan, though. Not giving up. I can do this - I can make it work. I took photos of myself last night to compare to the others I took 11 pounds ago, and I do look a bit thinner. Nothing remarkable, but there is a noticable change, especially in the backside photo which was the one that made me feel so bad about myself. My clothes are fitting nicely, and I think that pretty soon, I'll be wearing those pants I've been wishing I could "still" wear for the past 4 years!

Saturday night, our friends nephew is having a Halloween Party, and I've already been told that I better make that my cheat night. I don't know what they'll be serving, but I am sure that there will be alcohol, and that's probably what they're referring to. I think I might stick with rum and diet coke, no carbs, though my body will burn that first, and if they have pizza and wings (most probably) then I'll not eat the crust of the pizza, only the cheese and meat topping, and stay away from too many of those chicken wings!

I can do this, and still be "fun", right?

Today's Menu:
Breakfast: 1 rolo, 2 starburst (A total of 10 carbs)
Lunch:
Dinner: 1 1/2 chicken breast with bbq sauce

Today's Weight:
238.8

Pound Lost:
11.8 pounds

Day Five

Ah, finally I broke 240 this morning, and ended up right on the line of 239.0. Heaven!

We went to The Secret Life of Bee's Saturday with a good friend, I'm pretty sure I already blogged about this, but before we were on our way, I couldn't help but to see a picture of me that she had on her refrigerator.

That picture had been taken only 5 years ago, maybe 4, and I (if I do say so myself) looked amazing! A black and white "headshot" that was supposed to be used for auditions, should I come across any, in NYC. I remember at the time, having gained some weight from my earlier 196ish shots, that I looked fat, bloated, unrecognizable ... but Saturday, I looked young, gorgeous, lovely. Isn't it funny how 4 years, and 35 pounds can make you see a picture of yourself completely differently?

I must have weighed 210 or 215 at that shot, not thin - not heavy, but not 196ish. I'd love to get back to that place.

Today's Menu:
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: 1 1/2 (5" sticks) beef jerky/cheese combo (Total of 4.5 carbs)
Dinner: 1 1/2 chicken breasts baked in bbq sauce
"Cheated" 2 rolo's

Today's Weight:
239.0

Pounds Lost:
11.6

Day Four

Yes, I skipped blogging for Day Three, sorry. No one has commented on this anyway - so it's my assumption that you won't mind.

Today I had a large breakfast: 3 eggs over-easy, and 12, yes 12 pieces of bacon. Sounds unhealthy? Yes, well it is - I'm sure my arteries are clogging up as I type ... however, I have lost a considerable amount of weight.

This morning, I weighed myself, and to my surprise, 240.2. Yes, that's 10 pounds in just three and a half days. I was very good yesterday (Day Three) when we took a ride to Toronto. Oh, how I longed to pick up donuts from Timmy Ho's, or have a snickers bar, or a big 44oz. fountain rootbeer; but I resisted, and I am happy that I did.

I ate at a burger place, 2 patties, cheese, and 2 small hamburger dill slices. I assumed that I would have been given more pickles - I mean, how much are those things anyway? And I'm sure that they were saving plenty by not piling anything else on the darned thing! Why couldn't they have just given me a break, and given me say 5 or 6 hamburger dill slices? The equivelant to 1/16th of a pickle?

Ah no matter. Then we went to see "The Secret Life of Bee's" last night after our Toronto trip with our very good friend. She's a popcorn junky, and I won't lie, I had some. However, being the small lady she is - I had her doll out the junk. 2 handfulls, the equivelant to 1 of my handfulls, and I broke down and had a 64oz. fountain drink of diet coke. Now, I shouldn't be drinking diet coke - it's not good for my ulcer, but it's sweet, and it's calorie free, and I think that every 8oz. counts as 1 carb, so 8 carbs ... not bad, especially noting that I had not had any other carbs that day, albeit the handfull of popcorn.

I did weigh myself before our little trip yesterday morning, but because I didn't write it down, I can't remember what it was. 24-something? Anyway - it was less than the day before, and that means that this is working - again, like it always does.

YAY!

Today's Weight:
240.2

Pounds Lost:
10.4

Day Two

I'm not a fan of this diet for two reasons:

1. The headaches. It seems as though, rather out of mild hunger or caffeine deprivation, I get the worst headaches when I first start the diet. These only seem to last the first couple of days, but a pounding headache just isn't comfortable, 1-day, 2-days, or 1-minute.

2. Pee. Oh, the peeing! It's just awful! You must drink quite a bit of water to keep your kidney's from shutting down with the ketosis, (again - sounds really healthy huh?) and of course, you're losing all sorts of water weight - so, if you're wanting to follow a diet like this, then get ready to pee.

I did well last night, I was rather proud actually. My very good friend asked me to go with her to see Legally Blonde the Musical, and I did. Of course, most usually, this would be where I would completely blow my diet, and eat cheesecake and a greasy burger before the show. But I didn't. It's not to say that I didn't WANT to, I just knew that I shouldn't - and I resisted.

A garden salad: Mixed Greens (lots of escarole), Cukes, Tomato, and grilled chicken. Sounds bland and disgusting? Yeah - but I did use lemon juice to spice it up a little. That grilled chicken was flat flat flat. The dish came with pita strips, and I wasn't sure which was which. Note to self: NEVER order that again.

This morning, as usual - I skipped breakfast, and I'll probably end up with chicken breast for lunch. I'm drinking my water, and tonight (weather willing) I plan on walking. I figure, after a while, I'll jog/walk, then run/walk, then just run - and the weight is bound to fall right off.

Today's Menu:
Breakfast: Nothing
Lunch: 1 chicken breast (prepared by store) lemon/garlic grilled, 1 gallon water
Dinner:

Today's Weight:
247.0

POUNDS LOST:
3.6

Day One

I've decided to remain anonymous for this series of weight loss blogs, due to my severe disappointment in my current situation. However, I did feel that blogging about my goals and weight loss would be the best way to stay on track. I hope, that if you are reading this, you'll decide to comment and follow - as this journey will take some time.

I'm 26, male, 6'2, and 250.6 pounds (as of last night). I would venture to say that more than 40% of my body is fat. I've not always been this way - but it isn't the first time that I have been tipping 250 on the scale.

My heaviest came just 5 years ago, after graduate school. I must have gained 23 pounds in only 3 months, and I'm sure that there were several factors playing a role in that gain. First, I wasn't "skinny" to begin with. I had already started gaining weight before I left for school, and the attitude I had toward food and exercise just continued there.

It was at a gas station on my way to see my grandparents, that I realized I was over 250 pounds. I needed to make a change, and I did - like almost everyone else in the country, on New Years Day.

I started with a PSMDF, or Protein Sparing Modified Diet Fast, which I learned about via a weightloss chatroom. Though I can't be certain what my weight was when I started this diet, I know that after only 11 days, I had weighed 231 pounds. 24+ pounds in just 11 days - this diet was a winner. Since, it's been my old stand by, though the weight has never stayed off as long as I'd like for it to.

My first PSMDF resulted in my losing 60+ pounds, to 194. I looked fantastic, and felt fantastic too! Granted, I was still "form-less", I didn't have a lot of definition, or tone, but I was thin, and going to the gym was fun. I started building muscle, earning that definition ... and then I don't know what happened.

It stopped, almost as suddenly as it began. I lost inspiration, motivation, and I gained 30 pounds very quickly. After a move, I've now ballooned back to that 250+ pound person I literally hated no more than 4 years ago, and it's time to make a change.

This will be an accounting of the food, the drinks, the activity, and the hopeful weightloss. Again, I hope if you happen upon this blog, perhaps looking for someone to share your journey with, you'll comment and check back often.

Today's Menu:
BREAKFAST: Nothing
LUNCH: .60/lb Carved Turkey Breast, 1/2 gallon of water
DINNER: Garden Salad w/ Grilled Chicken Breast (Lemon Juice for dressing)

Today's Weight:
250.6 lbs.